GUYS! I haven't written in so long.....I've been struggling to find something to write about this year and I'll tell you why..... My students this year are so good. Like so so good. I take like 5% credit.....they totally came to me like this.
Usually I write about my students struggles and the things they've taught me, and while I have learned a lot about myself as a teacher this year that's not why I'm writing today.
Lately I have been feeling really hopeless in this career, and I am totally not saying this to get a bunch of sympathy or like an ego boost (however if you feel so compelled.....haha kidding kidding). It is really hard to be a teacher these days....there is always going to be someone higher up making the decisions that impact your classroom every day. Lots of times these higher ups have NO clue what they are talking about. They dole out funds where they think fit and they usually don't have the first clue where the money should actually go.
They make rules and do things that they think will work but in reality it just fluffs* things up entirely and then SURPRISE the problems don't go away and in most cases they get worse.
This whole education system is so flawed and so corrupted in ways that I think that it will never be fixed. This is what has given me that hopeless feeling....I want to fix it but the problem seems too big. There are too many issues that are all pretty big hitters. Basically the education system is the Titanic and we hit that iceberg.....WHAT ARE WE SUPPOSE TO DO!
It also is impossible to keep a brave and professional face when your daily life is so fluffing stressful. I don't have any children that I birthed but you better believe that I have 22 children that I care for like my own during the school day......the worst part is though that most of our students are going through their horrible teenage years and theyre awful to us. They hit, kick, cuss out, lie, go missing, steal, say horribly mean things, outright defy us and refuse to talk to us.
So when our little teens do go haywire we need support to make sure that our other students are still learning....but a lot of times the support isn't there. Sometimes its not the admins fault either...they have rules they have to follow by their higher ups (THOSE DANG HIGHER UPS) and theyre not helpful to anyone!!!
Honestly guys I don't even know what I'm talking about anymore.....basically just being a grumpy little grouch bucket. However these are all real concerns....I just think that there should be a rule in place for anyone that has a hand in making decisions for the education system....you MUST be a teacher for at least 7 years in a public school and have a close personal friend who teaches in a private school before you can make ANY decisions that impact teacher's lives. The end.....JUST BE BETTER EDUCATION SYSTEM! BE BETTERRRRRRRRRR
ALSO. While walking into my apartment today at the end of a very long and stupid day....two guys who were playing a casual game of catch in the WINTER while it was RAINING overthrew the baseball and it hit me square in the back....looking back on it and telling the story to my sister I realize that this is actually a hilarious end to my day....but in the moment it hurt...
The end....most eloquent post ive ever written...
