My brain is melting

Well guys....its happening....my brain is melting.

I thought when I became tenured (which I am!) I was going to be golden. I thought that I wouldn't have to worry anymore and my teacher magic would float around the room like sparkly pixie dust and all my kids would fall under my spell and be perfect.

I was wrong...obvi....also I'm being dramatic...I didn't really think I was magical. HOWEVER! I did think that I would feel more prepared in my teacher life this year. I. WAS. SO. VERY. WRONG!!!!!

I swear I walked around the first few days literally thinking "have I done this before?"

The answer of course is: yes

The problem is that things never stop changing! This is a big problem...we keep adding and changing and tweaking and we never give anything enough time to see if it actually works!

If its this hard for freaking adults to follow HOW DO YOU THINK IT IS FOR OUR STUDENTS!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?! I added a lot of ?!s because it really annoys me.

I might have taken a certain test this afternoon with my babies and it might have been the most stressful and trying thing I've ever done....so maybe the wound is a little too fresh...but I still think we need to stop changing things at the drop of a hat.

"Their points didn't triple with this test!!!"

"I know what to do!!!"

"CHANGE IT ALL!!"

"yesssss yes that will fix it"

We just pile assessments and test and data on teachers and its overwhelming and it forces teachers to focus their energy on things that might not be actually improving students education.

Im not sure if you all know this but teachers aren't perfect....Im sorry I know I just burst SO MANY BUBBLES! But we aren't...we make mistakes and get lost in thought and don't have enough hours in our day and we do our best but when we are overloaded with bologna....our brains become bologna....

Its late (actually its only 9:07 but I literally feel like Ive been awake for 34 hours) and I know im rambling.

But in conclusion if anyone ever says "kindergarten is easy!" to me I am going to make them test 18 little 5 year olds on a computer test where they have to drag and drop, click, move the mouse and find words ON THEIR OWN within the first 15 days of school.....the end goodnight